FOR NOW YOUR MEMORY STILL SHINES BRIGHT............ / JOSIE FERRUSQUILLA (FRIEND)
FOR NOW YOUR MEMORY STILL SHINES BRIGHT, INSIDE US ALL, NOT ALLOWING US TO FALL AS WE ALL STAND TALL, THE WAY YOU WOULD WANT IT TO BE, AS ONCE MORE I WILL SEE YOUR FACE, NO ONE CAN EVER TAKE YOUR PLACE IN ALL OF OUR HEARTS. WE MISS YOU REBEL !!!! Close

A lifetime is a long wait / Angelina Varela

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, a hour to appreciate them, a day to love them but then an entire life to forget them.

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A FEW QUESTIONS ...  / Hilda

A FEW QUESTIONS …

How in this world 

Can we put a man on the moon

And still have a need

For a place like St. Judes

And why is one man born

In a place where all they know is war

A guy like me, 

Has always been free

And how can two people

Who built a loving home

Try for years 

And never have a child of their own

And somewhere out there tonite

There is a baby no ones holding tight

In need of love

To me that don't add up

But I wasnt there the day you filled up the ocean

I didn't get to see you hang ths stars in the sky

So I don't mean to second guess you

Or criticize what I don't understand

These are just a few questions I have

And why did my cousin

Have to die in that crash

A good kid

Only nineteen













I still wonder 'bout that

It seems unfair to me

Some get the chance to chase their dreams

And some don't

What do I know

I wasn't there the day You filled up the ocean

I didn't get to see You hang the stars in the sky

So I don't mean to second guess You

Or criticize what I don't understand

These are just a few questions I have

Why do I feel like 

You hear these prayers of mine

When so many outta be 

Ahead of me in line

When you look down on me

Can you see the good through all the bad

These are just a few questions I had

 

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I never called you JOHNY... / Allison Gutierrez (Friend since 7th grade)

JONATHAN...FROM THE FIRST TIME WE MET I NEVER CALLED YOU "REBEL".DURING HIGHSCHOOL I ALWAYS CALLED YOU JONATHAN. I NEVER CALLED YOU JOHNY. YOU WERE JONATHAN. JONATHAN ...THE ONE GUY WHO WAS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME AND EVERYONE. YOU WERE THE GUY WHO EVERYONE TALKED ABOUT. YOU WERE REALLY POPULAR EVEN THOUGH YOU DIDN'T SEE IT. YOU WERE LOVED BY MANY...IT WAS CLEARLY SHOWN WHEN ALL THE PEOPLE GATHERED ON THOSE LAST DAYS OF SAYING GOODBYE. BUT IT WAS NOT GOODBYE FOR ME BECAUSE I KNOW THAT YOU ARE STILL AROUND....I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU...JOHNY....I MISS YOU AND I LOVE YOU....EVERYDAY I STILL THINK ABOUT YOU AND ALL THOSE GOOD TIMES WE HAD....I KNOW THAT YOU ARE NOT WORRIED ABOUT ME BECAUSE YOU SAID THAT I WAS SMART. AND THOSE WORDS THAT YOU WROTE TO ME MEANS ALOT TO ME AND I WILL REMEMBER THEM FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN...

ALLISON

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I'M TILL HERE  / Amanda (Sister)

I am still here
I wonder how you are doing
I hear the sound of your voice
I see you through the night
I want you back by my side
But I'm still here.


I pretend to be O.K.
I feel saddened
I touch the things you left behind to hope that You are there
I worry that you have suffered
I cry to want you back again
But I'm still here



I understand that you are gone
I say I am fine'ButI'm not
I dream that you are here agine
I try to be strong,but I know that I can't
But I am still here.


I love you big brother miss you too!

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Johnny you always had a smile on ur face!!! / Cheyla Garcia (Friend)
I remember when you first came to Haskell and you thought you were all that. We became to be friends....then in high school we got closer. Remember how i always did your homework and id bring your book to class everyday???Hehe I miss you Johnny you were a good friend. I still remember on Yali's quincinera we danced to salsa all day!! Ill always remeber you and i hope u look down at me from time to time just to see how iam..

                                                Love your friend,
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We Lovvvve You! / Shei (friend of moms)

I met ur mom on the groww chat site tonight, what a wonderful experience Jonathan! 
I had to come here and meet u, cuz I am convinced u and Hols are up there together, ur moms seen her, some how I just know u see her too. 
I couldn't believe I read, we love you in ur moms tribute... u seen me sign off with
We Lovvvvve you!
to ur mom, talk to hols, no foolin, that was HER favorite thing to say! 
Too bizarre, too cool! how ur mom and I connected.  U and Holly sound so much alike!  If you guys had to go, I'm so glad that you two met.  It makes me feel better to know Hols has a friend like u  : )
Jonathan, please tell Hols her mom misses her!
*big hugs*  Shei.
p.s.  can u show Holly the beach???

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I'm thinking about you.... / Allison Gutierrez (Friend)

JONATHAN...no matter what I do I cannot stop thinking about you. Your always on my mind. I dream about you, think about you, and see you in my thoughts. You were a great friend and I miss you. I wish that I could see you and talk to you. I know your in a better place and that when I feel you around...that its you visiting me.

allison

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Always Loved & Never Forgotten / Cathy Lizarde (Friend)

Jonathan,
You were a very special person. Always there for your friends when we needed someone. I remember when we met at Haskell Jr. HIgh. You where quiet the ladies man. "REBEL". all these memories we had will always stay in my heart.
May your family find peace for now you rest.
 
Silent thoughts, a secret tear.
A constant wish that you were here.
No need for words except to say,
we love and miss you every day.
Always loved and never forgotten

Love and Miss YOU!!!
Cathy

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When You Lose a Child.. / Mom

When you lose a parent, you lose your past.
When you lose a spouse, you lose your present.
When you lose a child, you lose you future.

A child that loses a parent is an orphan.
A man who loses his wife is a widower.
A woman who loses her husband is a widow.
There is no name for a parent that loses a child,
for there is no word to describe this pain.

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Thank You for Jonathan! / Jennifer Tremayne (8th grade English teacher)
Dear Marcia- Thank you for the joy of Jonathan, both in life and in Heaven. I think of him daily, and in the past few weeks I can now think of him and smile. Most people don't touch that many lives in long life, Jonathan left love behind in so many places and in so many ways. Thank you for the joy of Jonathan. Close

sending condolenses / Dee
dear familiy and friends, Stay together,lean on one another for strenght and donot leave God out because he gives stenght to the tired one and to the without dynamic energy he makes full might abound.(Isaiah40;29). Darkness may be near, but light comes also.sadness may stay longer, but joy has power to overcome setbacks in life.... Sending love from a distance... Close

Marcia...thank you so much for your kind words... / Laurie Bramer
I am so sorry to hear also of the loss of your son. I can't think of a greater pain...I know...I'm living it. So many times I wonder if I can be strong enough to get through this. I know Kyle would want me to but it is so hard. I miss him more than life itself. He was also in a single vehicle accident with no drugs or drinking involved. He didn't have his seat belt on though. They promise me he felt nothing. That's what kills me...was he in pain? Was he scared? Before he went out that night I did get a hug & kiss from him & we were able to say our I love yous to eachother. I thank God for at least that. I will cherish that moment forever. I hate to even ask you this, but does it get any easier? I feel so empty & alone without him though I do still have his sister. Things just aren't the same without him...the house is deafeningly silent. I look at his pictures & just cry & ask myself why?  I know he is in a better place now...probably hanging out with your son...but I want him home again. I look forward to the day we are together again. If ever you want to talk...my email is LaurK98@aol.com. Unfortunately we have a horrible thing in common...but at the same time I guess you can say it's comforting. Hope to hear from you. Close

In my prayers / Samantha Mitchell


  I pray that God will give all of this young man's family and friends the peace in their hearts that only he can give. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I know what it is like to lose a Big Brother. I hope you all find peace and strength.

 Kindness from Alabama.

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In good hands !! / Hector Chavez (Family Friend)

When JESUS lived upon the earth so many years ago,
HE called the children close to HIM because HE loved them so ...
And with the tenderness of old, that same sweet, gentle way,
HE holds your little loved one close within HIS ARMS today...
And you'll find comfort in your faith that in HIS HOME ABOVE
The GOD of little children gives your little one HIS LOVE...
So think of your little darling lighthearted and happy and free
Playing in GOD'S PROMISED LAND where there is JOY ETERNALLY.

Author Unknown


My deepest condolences to Juan, Marcia, Amanda, and Andrea that I havent had the pleasure to meet. My thoughts and prayers are always with you.

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My special friend / Allison Gutierrez (Friend)

Jonathan, you were my special friend. No one will know how special our friendship was. You were always there for me when I needed someone to talk to. You told me I could call you whenever I needed to talk to someone. I have all these memories since the 7th grade to remember you for the rest of my life. You are no longer here on earth but in spirit and in my heart. I know your around and I can see you in my dreams. I know one day when my time comes that I will be able to see your sweet smile again. You made me feel special and I will never forget you.

Love and Miss YOU!!!
Allison

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God's Whisper  / Mom

God saw you reaching for the sky.
I prayed,"Dear God, Please dont' let Johnny die."
He whispered gently to him,
"Come on, it,s your time to go,
Say good-bye to your dear family,and friends
Tell them you love them so.
Wish them well, a happy life,
Don't let their souls break down and die.
Rest their broken hearts assure,
That you  fought hard to the end.
The tunnel light is getting bright.
The angels' songs will make you strong."

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See You Sooner Than Later... / Neysi Garcia (Friend)

Jonathan, you were such a genuine kind hearted friend thank you for being yourself! The memories of our younger days are always in my thoughts, after a long six years of losing contact I'm glad we had the chance to catch up and reminisce about old memories we shared and make a few new ones, although your beautiful life was cut short, I know that in time we will meet again. See you sooner than later...Love!

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To a very special guy  / Angelina Varela (Friend)
    Johnny,
What can I say, I just can't tell you how greatful I am to have had you in my life. You were such a great friend. You listened to me and let me cry on your shoulder and you never turned your back on me. It's really hard to find friends like you. You helped me through alot and I can't even say how much I thank you. I will never forget you Johnny boy you made my life so much more happy.You showed me that life still goes on after a loved one is gone. I felt at one point that I had let go of life and didn't want to talk to anyone, then you showed me different. You opened my eyes again and told me to wake up and enjoy life. Thanks to you I can live again. I will never ever forget what you did for me. I love you and miss you so much! Your such an angel.
                                             Love always,
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My Big Brother  / Andrea Arreola (little sister-cheeckies)

I LOVE U AND  MISS YOU. You and Me use to, team up you use 
to hold Amanda back and I use to punch her for fun. One day
at the Market I saw a boy with a black sweater he was
wearing the hood on his head and he made me think of you
and it was very sad it  made me cry. Thats how much I miss you.
You was smart and all but you made me laugh.
You had a lot of girlfriends cause you'r hot and handsome
all the girls wanted to go to the prom with you thats hot and
handsome you were.  You were a good big brother. But God had to take you home so soon but will get to see you again in heaven so we could be together. I hope you had a good Christmas  in heaven. Always take care of us from were you'r at.
                    I LOVE YOU VERY ,VERY MUCH.
                    SEE YOU SOON BIG BROTHER.
                             CHEECKIES  8 yr old 1/4/05  #20

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